Thanks again my very good friends.
I feel destroyed, and angry that this can happen to such a wonderful, vibrant, and gorgeous person, with all her life still ahead. She's only 46, but the age difference seems nothing, and we 'clicked' at first sight.
Try to enjoy what time you have, and think if you would have been richer or poorer if you hadn't met.
Poor consolation I know but try to stay positive.