I'm really sorry to hear this Andy, and was shocked when I got to Page Two, and saw your latest post!
I know words don't really help or convey what one thinks or feels, but I do know what it's like at the moment.
I lost a girlfriend to cancer almost four years ago, and my father exactly a year later. With Dad, it was sort of expected due to age, but the girl was only 26, and I wished I had been taken instead of her, with her life yet to live.
Keep strong mate, and remember we are all here if you need us.