Peter Gunn
Master Sergeant
My friend I know what you mean, I've had some regrets but not that one. However, and I'm not sure this will help but, a wise person told me not long ago that no one is the same person that we were 40 years ago. We were discussing just this topic, there was someone in the past I was rather regretting not pursuing but realized I was chasing a dream. Just a thought but neither you nor she are the same as you were 55 years ago, there's no extrapolating (accurately) where you'd be if you'd made a different decision.Trying to accept the fact that I walked away from the right girl for me 55 years ago. She was loving, kind, gentle, and she loved me for me. There was and never will be another like her. The emptiness has caught up to me.
Even my wife of over 40 years and I have changed to the point that the real reason we're still together is we're used to and comfortable with each other. Heck, if we met now we might not even go on a date. Not sure if that's any consolation but it's the best I got, hang in there bud.
I don't want to sound cliche but, I think I can speak for everyone in saying that we're all glad you're here to share your knowledge and experience with us, don't ever forget that. I (and all of us here I think) can understand emptiness/loneliness especially as we cruise towards our later years, I hope you can find or have some activity to fill in the void, even if it's just a little bit.
And remember, we're all here for you bud.